love is for fools who fall behind... My parents fucking suck. our family can never have a normal day...no matter what. So today was supposed to be a fun-filled Christmas decorating the outside of the house day and my dad took off from work and everything...wound up to be my mother outside in the cold doing them so I offer to help while my dad sits on his ass watching football....then HE starts yelling that we should have a family day and that no one cares about anything and that the he hopes he dies. Andrew wanted to go over his friend's house and both my parents said yes then got mad at him for not wanting to stay home and be with the crazy family... sometimes I don't blame him even though it was rude to leave when we were supposed to have a special day...my dad has something wrong with him and has to go in January to get surgery or something and whenever we get in a fight he always says "I hope I die in January"...really great thing to say when your kids are around....it makes us feel really great.God only knows what will happen with anything...my family is nuts, then my mom wonders why I'm "not the same person I used to be"...hmmm...I wonder why?? So that's my family...nuts. Then I have the rest of my life....which is probabaly worse than anything my family could do. I'm so sick of everything and, at the risk of sounding like people who constantly complain about their lives, I can't take it anymore...I'm ready to get out of this place and graduate...these people piss me off. I'm sure I'll be thinking about my dad dying the rest of the day....great "family day." ...also praying for Maria's friend's uncle...I'm keeping my fingers crossed. don't depend on me to ever follow through on anything but I'd go through hell for you and I haven't been this scared in a long time and I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody this world's and ugly place but you're so beautiful to me ||blink182||