ok, so i am not sure whether this is a good idea or not... but here goes... who is joey? he's this great guy that i've been getting to know... he's my friend's roomate up in ND... (they are both in the AF) and why is he important? well, he's the first guy i have been able to open up to in a while... and i trust him almost to the point of where it scares me... i am almost to the point that if he were to ask me to do something i would without questioning him... (ok i'd question but not the bad kind... yall know me... nosey little bitch!!! jk) i was talking to my friend today and he told me that everything he's told me is true and that is how he is... he asked me last nite about the stuff he says i haven't told him... like what makes him different to me... i didn't really answer him... mainly because it's been so long since i have trusted a guy i am not sure what to answer... to me he's like this guy i always knew was there... just not in my life... i don't know if that's clear or not but i will try to explain it... i am not sure i believe in soul mates... i do believe that we all have that one person who isn't perfect just "perfect for you" (at that particular point in time)... i mean the same person who was perfect for you in highschool has evolved and developed into possibly not the perfect person for you in college or after that even... we are all constantly changing but i dont' think that we change so much that in like 5 years of being married to someone they are completely different... that's not what i mean at all... i just think that until u find "the one" u are gonna find a lot of "perfect for yous"... but then i also believe that it doesn't matter what the world says if you find that one person who accepts you for what you are regardless and doens't try to change you then why keep looking... ok so now back to joey, i am not to the point where i can apply any of the stuff above to him or us yet... or maybe i can and just dont' want to admit to it yet... all i do know right now is that i have never felt this way about a guy right from the start... not to sound corny... but he had me from "hello"... how funny is that... one of my favorite movies... (jerry maguire) fyi... but yeah, i believe in fairytales and white horses with gallant knights... and even tho i dont' know where it's gonna take me... i am totally game for the ride... i am tired of being scared and not doing things that my heart tells me to do because i thought about it too much... that's one of things i love about him... he always tells me not to think too much and just say what i think... so i know that doesn't really answer anything but hey, that's part of me... i avoid questions and give long loopy answers hoping no one catches on to what it actually is... eh, i'll change that one day... but who knows... maybe the really important answers are the ones u have to find on ur own... gonna go pass out now... big headache!!! lol... not sure if it was worth it yet or not!!! lol... ciao... Ya Tu Sabes!!!