so i am gonna swear off my family... it's a really long story but i dont feel like telling it... it hit me last nite when i was talking to joey that there are things that may keep us apart... not just distance but other things... bigger things... and it scares me... i can feel myself crumbling with the idea of it... and it's only the idea... he's keeping something from me and i dont' know what to do about it... or how to convince him that it's ok no matter what it is... i mean even if he told me that more happened with the whole sueanne thing... i'd be able to deal with it... not knowing is what is killing me right now... and i dont' know how to bring it up... there IS something i do know that for sure... how do i know? well usually when he tells me he loves me or that i mean everything to him... it gives me a different feeling... lately it seems as tho... there's this huge... "but..." who knows... maybe it's just my imagination... i hope... it figures it'd be just about now when things are going so well that i'd have to find something... typical me... ok not gonna stress about it anymore... ok i am but i am gonna make myself do other things too... ciao