i know angry is a strong word even for me... but i liked that one instead of abandoned... i want to understand as much as i claim to... i want to be ok as much as i claim to be... but i am not and i can't help it... it's hard when someone tells you ur a priority and then goes on to list the plans he's made without you!!! i need to go walk or smoke or drink or all of the above... i'll finish this later...