i'm a little confused right now...i feel like crap actually... i miss ana and i miss how things used to be... i talked to terry tonite and he told me that he and tristan could come get me from the airport... that way joey doesn't have to take off work and stuff... how sweet... and then he asked about whether i'd ever done anal and if so, did i like it??? random i know... also he was like so you and joey are getting married huh? i was like... yeah i hope so eventually... and he brought the tattoo parlor and the guys up there and stuff only joey could have told him about but i am not sure if it was good or bad... i mean i am gonna ask joey about it but i'd be lying if i said it didn't bug me... cuz it does... but i am not sure why... i started smoking again... actually about a week ago... i had quit for a long time and then again for a week before this time... i am not sure i can quit this time tho... nah! i can... i always have been able to before... this time seems to be harder tho... ok i am done ranting... i am excited that joey got his lighter today... he said it was pretty and he liked it... i told him it wasn't supposed to be pretty but he said it was anyways... ok i am gonna go clean a little before i call joey and go to bed... nite all ciao, Jacky