it's been an emotional week... list of events: 1. Douglas is gone!!! 2. Joey is gone... 3. Ricky came home... so did Ruben... and Jeremy (even tho i haven't gotten to see him) 4. Surgery 2x 5. Gaby and her anorexia/bulimia 6. Grandma and Dad are dying... 7. Pain!!! lots of pain!!! some of these events good... see #3... but some bad and painful see #1,4,7... i really need joey right now tho... and it sux he's so far away... he is being very supportive about #4 tho... and keeps reminding me to take the pain killers... so my mom and i have been using the wonderful make believe world of hollywood as our escape from our turbulent and distraught worlds... yeah buddy!!! Blockbuster, you rock right now... with ur unlimited movie deal thingy