well i went... to see Joey after he broke up with me... and nothing... i know he still loves me because there are some ways you can't hide it... but there's nothing there anymore... i was having a decent weekend till he decided to call and "catch up" what load of bullshit... i should have listened to friends when they said not to mention the at home i had bought but stupid me thought it can't be so horrible... oh it was and more... he said what Ed had told him about me trying to trap him... fuck that and fuck Ed... if and when i am then he'll never know... i'll lie and say it's not his... i don't care i don't want him in my life anymore... i am out of emotions... i have felt pain, sadness, anger, confusion and i am out!!! it is too much... being his girlfriend and having him be a part of my life was something i will never regret... i regret loving him and believing he loved me... that i regret!!! i just don't know how long it's gonna hurt... but i am gonna get him out of my life... even if he hates me for it... being his friend is the worst feeling in the world... too bad i still love him huh??? that's the second worst feeling in the world... being in love with someone like him... "If we were supposed to be sharing our lives...why didn't you share your life with me? Omission is betrayal." from some movie that Evie told me about.... i want to hate him more than anything else in the world!!!