i know that if u go back and read most of my entries they all seem to be about the same person... my joey... and it's funny but since i started dating him that's exactly right... he's made a huge difference in my life... emotionally and behavior wise... i have friends that tell me i am not the same girl they used to love to hang out with and u know... they are right i am not... tonite we talked about trucks and hemi's and yukons and engines... lol i know me... talking about things i used to not understand... he gets so into what he explains to me that its adorable... if it weren't so late i'd let him go on and on... and it doesn't even begin to bore me... stephanie was saying how she couldn't possibly see her self spending more than an hour on the phone with anyone... on average we talk between 2-3 hours a nite... sometimes only 1 but that's only if one or both of us is exhausted... i get to talk to him every morning and even though even that sounds extreme for some... i look forward to waking up at 5:45 every day to call him because i know that i was the last person to talk to him before he went to sleep and the first person to talk to him when he wakes up in the AM... i know i know... this isn't the old jacky at all!!! but i like this new person i found... and better yet... joey loves her... ;) am i beaming? YES!!! and it's the best feeling in the world... knowing someone loves you for who you REALLY are!!! he's my best friend... and i love him so very much... so yeah, maybe all my entries have been about him for a while... and will be for an even longer while, but i'm ok with that... and no one is forcing you to read them... anyways here is the only place i dont' feel stupid for saying how much i love him and how unlike the old me this truly is... ok gotta sleep.... and dream of my hunny... ciao p.s. i miss my mom ALOT and i am sad for my family... but i know that it will all be for the best