I got a little tired last nite and felt like writing... now don't you guys worry anymore... i had a friend talk me thru it simply by listening... ty B... and it's daylight out so i am not all freaked out anymore... but you know me... little miss drama-high maitenance... and please respect the nature of the poems... if u dont' think u should ask don't!!! WIND I can hear the wind outside my window She tries so desperately to get in… She beats against the building and pushes away the trees So angry So violent So uncontrollable She has no reigns or anyone to break her I walk out and stand in all her might She envelopes me and holds me tight And then just as she came She is gone… EMPTY I am empty And alone I offer no love No hope No peace to anyone With me you will see pain Envy, wrath and guilt… I am worthless and deserve it All of it Stay away COLD I am cold I feel good against your warm skin… You hate the way I affect you… But you love the reaction… I have power over you I am your secret guilty pleasure I am your dark skeleton that lingers in your closet I am a part of you And through you I live You think you can live without me But without me, how do you know you’re alive? You don’t because you aren’t! SILENCE No sound No color Just cold and silent No pain No hurt Just me and you Are you afraid yet? No smell No taste Just fear and loathing No shame No guilt It’s all gone now Not afraid anymore… WHY Why can’t she understand that she kills me every time she speaks… With every bruise a piece of me dies inside… Why can’t she just see I am not her... I am not her reflection… Why does she hate me… Was it all my fault… I would fix it if I could If I knew what I did wrong… In her eyes I see her hate… Hate that consumes her But is aimed towards me… I am sorry Mommy