ok so i got to talk to joey... he called me and we talked for about an hour... i know i know... and yeah i still feel like shit about this weekend but i feel a little better knowing that my worst fears about him were just that... and nothing more... still i feel sucky about being so damn emotional or emotionless whatever... i just need to stay around people who won't depress me... hahaha good luck jacky!!! LOL jk... and no more external (internal) accelerators... life sux sometimes!!! just deal!!!