yep im bein sneaky i have a date tomorrow hehe i know yall are probably thinkin woopie do why do u gotta be sneaky to go on a date and then id politley tell u to go fuck off cuz its muh first date and im not suppose to be datin newayz then id laugh and say jp! :D lol oh it was horrible yesterday i had to tell muh gurl alyssa dat my parents were gettin a divorce she took it pretty bad cuz mom and daddy are like her first set of parents really and then her step mom and step dad are like her second she was really worried bout who i was goin to live with and how everybody was takin it its weird i feel as if im in a dream as if ill just wake up and see them talkin to each otha like it was on thursday and not just completly ignorin each otha as if da thought of lookin at each otha will make them violently throw up and neva be able to stop....no i havent lost my mind it just seems dis way at my house its like all about survival i come from a totally screwed up family ive lost one sister and i may be about to lose kessie :( mom was talkin to her yesterday and i overheard mom tell her dat she worries and should be worried when her daughter takes a razor blade to school and starts cutting herself dis whole thing worries me it really does i worry bout my sister cuz i just want her to love herself and not be cutting i wish it was back like it use to be when me and her were best friends oh i miss da good ol dayz