Last nite as we were closing we were venting about boyz. I got a lot of things off my chest. And my guy took the cake... go figure.. I went to go hang out w/ Sarah the day b4 yesterday and we got all pretty and went to sherman where she got 2 guyz' phone numbers and I stayed over there feeling ugly. I don't like pretty people. Well I take that back cuz all my friends are pretty. I guess I just don't like it when I'm hanging out w/ pretty people and then it's kinda like fuck you you ugly piece of shit. And that's not true either I really only care about one guys opinion. I guess I just wish I had that flare and that I wasn't so ugly and grotesque. And someone told me once that I'm one of those girls you fuck then leave.... I'm not one u date and marry.... and sometimes I wonder if that's true.... I just wish I knew what was the matter w/ me why guys see me and think oo wat a nice piece of ass i wanna fuck her and don't think she'd be a nice gurl to settle down w/... RESOLUTIONS! 1. Work out on a regular basis w/ Tiffanie 2. Not to be afraid to take chances 3. To do what I want when I want 4. To be more daring (which is the same thing as 2 but w/e) and 5. Not to be so damn shy!