I hate everything.... everything that's right, but mostly everything that's wrong. I don't like God. I know that's mean to say, but he's a mean person. He's a cruel person. He doesn't understand pain. He doesn't understand he can only push a person so far. He doesn't understand people and he doesn't understand me. He's not a nice person. He thinks he's funny because to him life is a game. He doesn't understand that we need other people. He doesn't understand that we have sibilings to keep us strong. And if he takes one away it's the domino effect.... we all fall down. Sometimes I think he's Satan in disguise. He tells us not to do things... like killing others then he puts ideas into peoples's heads about how to make weapons.... how to strangle someone.... how to make drugs..... God is a really screwed up person..... and i need a hug but there's no one here to give me a hug.... b/c God had to take away the one person I want to hug.... I just wish he would let me be... That he'd quit tearing things out of my life. Things that are so damn important to me.... I don't know what I have done to deserve this. Maybe he thinks it will make my faith stronger but all it does is rip me apart. I really just don't like him at all.... -Elizabeth