I dont really feel all dat deceived but cried out wasnt there i dont know why ive been feeling so bummed out lately its like i feel worthless or something and today i was still mad at matt bout da ass thing and i havent been talkin to him so he goes well i dont care cuz ur ugly newayz and i guess i just completly changed da expression on my face or somethin cuz hes like what are u goin to cry and im like ya know i already know im ugly ive admitted it to myself every single day and so i dont need u tellin me it to cuz i already know this and then he like tried to apologize and everything and i just ignored him im tired of him bein like he is well then i was throwin somethin away and da bell ringz so christie had been talkin to matt and she walks ova to where i am and slapped me really hard on the ass i just wanted to scream at her so bad i felt like i was goin to cry she knows how much i hate that and she does it anyway and i know EVERYBODY knows i hate that cuz lynsi alwayz says somethin bout it when im with her and so does matt cuz hes alwayz tryin to get me to forgive him for doin it it just seemz to contiously get worse *cryz* *Libby*