Hmm I dont know what I want anymore. I'm so confused. I want someone I can't have. I really don't even know why I want him. I dont even know why I'm talkin bout it. It's just on my mind. I'm tired ive been sleeping alot today. Ive just been sleeping alot lately. Muh dreamz are never really dat good anymore. I dont like sleeping but sometimes i cant keep my eyes open. The man with the mask and long black hair pollutes my dreamz now. I try to stay up sometimes. but i need sleep and i dont want to sleep so whats the point. It's like Freddy Crouger.... all in my mind then why wont it go away? Sometimes i just wish someone would get it over with. Just kill me or something. It would crush my parents. I know it would, and the sad thing is I don't give a shit. It's never gone this far..... I need someone to talk to. Someone who'd hold me as I cried. Someone who I know wouldn't want to lose me. It's like I dont have a person like that anymore. Nanu use to listen.... use to hold me when i cried. tell me it would all be alright and that he was here for me forever... he's too tied up with Amanda now though.... Oh well I just need to quit thinking im something special. ~*Libby*~