Everything i care about is gone. Alyssa called and i told her what my parents said. She decided that we shouldn't go behind my parents back and that she didn't want to come over with my parents thinkin of her differently so we ended the convo crying... Third time this month ive cried its a fucking record for someone who doesnt cry. My parents have dragged me to hell... If i felt dead before i feel a million times worse I can't seem to win. I don't know what to do nemore. I've lost the only person I ever trusted I've lost my sister for the past ten yrs. I've lost my best friend. I've lost all feeling for everything with that. I dont think I've ever felt so suicidal in my life. It wouldn't matter neway. She was the only thing keeping me here. She was the only one who cared about me. Who listened to me. Who kept me safe. Who told me it was going to be ok. Is there nething to live for nemore?