Hmm I dunno what I want nemore... today in da car heading home tiff told me and Amanda that she just wanted to die... and ya know sometimes so do I... I've felt this way since fifth grade... and sometimes I think I'm getting better and other times... well... I dunno... I've been so pissed off with God lately and nothing's going right and everything's a mess and I just don't know where or what or even who to turn to.... I hate it... I told them that I felt the same way and amanda was like can we please just quit talking bout this and i felt so bad... I climbed in da backseat and gave her a big hug... I hate making her sad... :( cuz she had to go through all dis shit w/ our other bud tiffany and now she's in a hospital...... I dont want to turn into my sister.... And I want my other sister back... i dunno what to do... xoxo -Elizabeth