I am gone. I don't feel like im "here" anymore. I'm dying inside my body. There is no one i can talk to about this. No one understands. I feel like I'm goin to cry but I have nothing to cry about I just.... dont belong anywhere. And that is possibly the hardest thing right now to accept. I tried to talk to sarah about and usually I can tell her anything and everything, but this... was just too hard she told me i could come to her if i needed nething and that if I felt like i needed to run off like i do now... that i could come to her and she would help me work through it. I just feel so lost.... Unsure... used.... broken... dead.... alone.... completly alone.... I need out I just need to leave for a while and when everythign is fixed with a huge bandaid ill come back but until then i guess I'll die on the inside