Today...I'm so glad I have this damn thing to vent in. I'm so glad. A friend told me the other day that I had to go looking for things to make me sad. *shakes head* Days like today are the ones that make me sad. Everything was going fine up until 4th period. I mean, I finished this awesome pic of SesshoumaruxKikyo that isn't really that well accpted by Jess. I posted it on DA, with her writing still on it...lol. I was hyper a little bit during Earth Science and math, but that was just because I was glad to see my friends today and the fact that I was actually enjoying my art. *sighs, looking at the pics* I was so in the zone today. Then it all started falling apart. Mr. Yamamoto has so many people hating my guts. We had this awesoem Budokai 3 party planned for today. We had it planned since before Spring Break. I mean, I was ready for it too. Had the PS2 ready and waiting in my locker, along with the new Broly movie ^^ It was going to be so tight. Everybody was happy. Then that damned Yamamoto tells me I have to cancel it and leaves me to tell everyone. So, I have to find everyone that was wanting to come that it'd been canceled and they started blaming me. Only a few didn't, like Kei, Adam, Ian and Gary. But still. I hate being the bad guy. I spent all day talking to teachers to see if they'd let us borrow their room for just a few hours. *sigh* Well, I'm home instead of playing Veggie-head, what's that tell you? Then in fourth period, I was working on some Inuyasha pictures, most noteably a Breakfast Club parody one. Well, I'm really proud of how much time and effort I'm putting into this one(if you've read my past entries, you know I'm extremely harsh on myself concerning my 'art'). Anyways, this guy who always compares artwork with me (to see if either of us is improving) sees it. He laughs at it, then me, talking about how stupid I am for that. I told him to just shut up, so he does for a moment. He then picks back up, bad mouthing everything I'd done all year. I mean, I enjoy creative critisim, but this was harsh. I actually haven't really worked on the piece since. I don't usually let people get to me. But this....*sigh*...moving on... Anyways, just those two things alone are making me hate typing this. For as much as I smiled today, laughed today, I really can't believe so much of this hurt. I just note the other stuff, some good some bad: wrote a depressing story today about my past, dropped being a judge in a contest so I could enter it myself, decided that I don't care if I graduate or not, realized that I am tired of people thinking that I am something I'm not simply because I want to hide my true feelings without getting hurt anymore, and Sesshoumaru and Kikyo would make a fabulous pairing even if the most die hard fangirls don't agree with me. *sigh* I'm out of here. Part of me wants to cry, the other wants to draw, while a small portion just wants to stare at the art work of those that are better than me and see where I'm going wrong with it all. So, this is Senji-ku/Ears signing off, saying Ja mata and catch ya on the flipside.