It's 4:30 in the morning here and I'm updating my journal here out of the blue. It's strange, I know, but I just needed someone/something to talk to. I won't bore anyone with the details, but soemtimes I get this feeling that I'm just wasting my life, you know? I mean, I had all these dreams and aspirations, and now look at me. I'm going on 20 years old with nothing go for me. Two of my "friends", one a highschool drop out and the other a drug dealer (he didn't become one until her recently, long after we graduated so don't even know why I'm calling him a friend anylonger) have more going on in their lives than me. Hell! My little brother...even he has it going his way. *sighs* That's enough rambling. I'm too tired and I want to go play some more KHII.