Listening to: Every Heart- BoA, Inuyasha theme
Feeling: angry
No...I'm not angry at anyone beyond myself. I'm a stupid little dimwit you is so blinded by his own stupid hurt that he has hurt the heart of a person he made a promise to never do that to.
I have a fear of hurting those I care for the most. And there are only a handful of people that I feel that strongly for that I'd never dream of hurting them. They could stab me in the back, throw me from a rooftop, break my heart, destory my anime collection...and I'd still only wish theose people the best in their lives and that they get their hearts desires. But in my fear of being cast aside by those same people, I hurt my friend. And even though I say I'm sorry...a worried I hate having to say for it means I've wronged someone...no apology can make up for it.
*sighs and wipes away a couple tears* God, I hate being human at times...it's these damned emotions. I try to prove I'm stronger than it, but I keep letting it all go. I'm told it's supposed to be good for you. Heh...I suppose.
Anyways...onto what I guess can be considered good to some...I picked up my pencil again today and drew some. ^^u...it wasn't all too good...but it's a start. I'm going to try starting a web comic that's slightly based on me. Or, it's to say, that it's a story that has my feelings and general thinking within the main character.
Well...thats it from me for now. I guess I'm jetting for a little bit. Just...to get out, ya know?
Until our paths cross again, and they will...
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