*taps foot as class begins* Well, time is over. Please place your thesis paper on the ramifications of logic dictating human emotion on the front desk. Then get your asses out of here. I'm dismissing class early. Take tomorrow off to. I'm well aware of prom and feel you crazy kids should enjoy yourselves... *yawns and stretches* Alright, gang, I'm going to level with you. Yes, I'm still rather down from yesterday's news. Frankly, it shouldn't be hitting me as hard as it did, but it did. I love you all for wanting to cheer me up. It means alot to me. It really does, especially from Belldandy and Kei. But to finally answer Belldandy's question truthfully...right now...there is only one thing that will make me completely happy again. But like so much, I had to let my heart find only one thought worth while that is beyond my reach. So, I'm just going to ignore that desire and do my best to face forward and march on into the sun set. Anywho...*comes back with a warm mug of coffee*...today, with the exception of being down, was...interesting. We're now just a few weeks from graduation time. I think I'm going to put college on hold for a slight while. I spent all day drawing that it dawned on me that my skills aren't college ready yet. I must become better. Lol..this one pic I did today...Vincent going crazy and fighting like a mad man. I look at it now and realize that the three guys his fighting/strangling/killing represent three guys I actually hate or am completely jealous of in real life. Sheesh...guess I need to fire Amber. She's letting me become inspired by pain and heartache...can't have that, can I, muse? Belldandy was a fabulous friend today...though...I couldn't help but notice how beautiful she looked today. *laughs some* No..no...I'm not trying to be flirty. It's just, the way I feel comfortable around her and that I can tell her anything (well...almost anything), I forget sometimes that she's a lady. And times like that, my language and behavior are...lack luster to say the least *cough*corner*//cough*. So, thanks and sorry, Jess.^_^ The shining grace for today was anime club. I love that so much. It is a way for me to feel like I'm giving something back to my friends. And it's also a great way to hang out with some friends after school, even though we're still technically inside of school. Yusuke Urameshi, a cussing Goku, and ninja penguins were the center of attention. Kie kept trying to find out what was wrong with me, pulling me over to talk "man to man". Lol...that guy, such a softie. Anyways, I have to think of something big to do. They deserve it and with the year coming to an end, I want them to have a meeting they'll remember. Well, I'm out of here. I've decided that I'm tired of being heartbroken or pained because someone hates the way I look. So, I'm going to start walking/running for at least two hours a night and hitting the gym on the weekend. Besides, I've really got nothing of importance to say. If I remember, I'll post the rest later. If not, I'll spill the beans tomorrow. This is your favorite Senji-ku, signing off, saying ja mata and catch ya on the flipside... Random Qoute: You like Boton? As in Yu Yu Boton? She scares me! ~ Heather, a friend from schoo. I said she reminded me of Boton when she hugged me. Go figure...