Hey everyone. It's been an interesting weekend. I go away for a few days and my friends are fighting. I hate it when friends fight. Then I find out that things will never work out between my crush and I. Long story short: she likes someone else. Oh well...it's just as well. My dreams from the last two nights aremaking me feel as though my emotions were misplaced on her. This weekend, I had the hardest time surpressing the urges I had to just run away. Run away from everything and everyone. I mean...I'm tired of being judged for who and what I am. Anime has earned me many friendships, but destoryed many more. Art has no meaning for me anymore (although, the new Star Wars movie left me beyond the word inspired). Very few people see me for what I truly am. I think I can count the number of people on my left hand that can. On that same note, I'm so fucking tired of people...friends...even family...thinking I'm gay simply because I've never had a true girlfriend. How can it be counted against me that the girls I fall for are to shallow to accept me for as I am, have boyfriends, or like guys to whom they hold to such high regards that to attempt to compete against those guys would be an emotional kamakazi attack on myself? Honestly?! It's not fair! And it's not even like I'm looking for the impossible in a relationship. I just want to have someone that can make me smile, blush, laugh, someone who makes me enjoy being myself and someone who enjoys being theirself around me. But I have this deep, heart-sinking feeling that I'll never have that. I understand that some out there think that there is someone for everyone. Honestly...and without offense....that comment comes only from those that have someone. And they are truly luckly. Too bad we can't all be as such. *sigh* Well, graduation is Tuesday. After that, all I've got for 12 years of joy, loss,love and heartache/break is a stupid piece of paper. It just doesn't matter to me. And on that final note, tomorrow I'm going to school for about 30 minutes to make up for the photos I lost on Friday. I totally destoryed the film. So, I'll see some of you tomorrow. Until next time, this is everyone's favorite baka futori haisha Senji-ku signing off, saying ja mata and catch ya on the flipside. Random Quote:Exile must I go to...failed have I... - Yoda. I feel the same way, little man.