*to paraphrase Raven from her birthday episode* I just want this day to be over... And frankly, I really want it over quickly. I decided if I was going to quit drawing, I wasn't going to go to that 24 hour thing. So I decided to give that girl a shot and called her up. We met up at the mall. Well, we start talking and such, she said something that struck me as too convient. She quoted my favorite line from Fullmetal Alchemist. What was weird about it was that I'd said that Friday during homeroom. My mind got the best of me and I had to ask her why she came over and talked to me and Austin. After about an hour of asking, she told me that Austin had arranged for it. She was a friend from church. He'd filled her in on some stuff about me and such. He claims he felt like he was letting a friend down by letting him be by himself on prom night. So, I apologized for Austin's stupidity and took her home. Sometimes my friends can be so thoughtful, other times they make me feel so fucking low about myself. I mean, I apperciate the help of trying to set me up with someone and all...Belldandy tried it basically...but to make me feel like this cute girl came out of blue and came over to talk to me cause she was interested... But I can't hate him. I can't hate any of my friends...ever... *sigh* Anyways...I'm out a here. I can't just mope around and be depressed. I'm starting up an anime site (heh...I am the king, minusing Inuyasha Trivia, Jess), and then I'm heading to the gym. So, this is everyone's favorite haisha Senji-ku signing off, saying ja mata and catch ya on the flipside... --------------------------------------------- *blinks, yawning* Ok, so today was horirble to begin with, but it got better a few hours ago. First, I have to apologize. Everyone lately has been telling me to do what I want to be happy again or to do something for myself. Frankly, I don't like that. I like doing for others. But they keep insisting. So I sat down and thought long and hard about what it'd take to make me happy. After hours of thinking...I realized I can't get what I want. I'd have to step over the hearts of others and conflict with the desires of a friend. I can't do that. I'd rather be a bitter, hated haisha than upset my friends. So, that is to accredit to me acting like a downer, a spoil brat lately and part (like 45% of why I'm not going to prom later tonight). For now, I've put away my pencil and paper. I will still work on Red Dawn (sorry, girls, I really love this project, I don't want it to die) and the unnamed one with Bailey. Other than that, writing/drawing is relatively out of the question. Now, before anyone thinks that their comments "broke my spirit"...I'll be honest with you. There are a million better creators out there than I. I don't need to be wasting your time, their's or mine with childish fantasies. *sigh* I was playing Halo 2 tonight when Austin called me up and wanted to know if I wanted to go to Star Bucks on First Avenue. So we went. About twenty-five minutes after being there, these girls came over and started talking to us. Well...long story short...the night ended with me falling out of a slow, moving car laughing hysterically because Austin said I had a shot with this one girl. I mean, I literally fell over, out of the car, and rolled on the ground laughing. He didn't say anything funny, it's just like all the emotions I'd let build up by hiding to myself this week burst out. He had to get Rob's help to get me into the house because I was having trouble walking/standing. I just couldn't stop laughing. My father thought I was drunk. Well, at least I know what happens when I hide my true feelings for too long. I burst out, uncontrollably, into fits of laughter that puts the Joker to shame. Some punch/fight, I laugh. God...such a haisha... Anyways...*sighs*...I have the girl's number and 'date' if I want to get lunch with her tomorrow. Yeah...I doubt it. A.) Tomorrow (Saturday, later today) is 24-Hour Comic Book Day. Basically, you try creating comic in 24 hours. It'd be my last time drawing before quitting. B.) I'm kinda fat to actually be taken seriously in that matter by females. C.) And most importantly...going there will conflict with my own desires, no matter if they're impossible to reach. Well, I'm out of here. I'll update later if anything changes. I hope you all have fun at prom tonight, especially you two, Belldandy and Sprite. You girls deserve a good time. And, Sprite, make sure she dances with HIM. Oh, and I've fully decided that Monday, I'm going all silent, Mr. Mime style! ^.^ So, this is your favorite haisha Senji-ku signing off, saying ja mata and catch ya on the flipside.