First, I'd like to say that our president has actually impressed me for once in his two terms. He addressed the matter of our nation's diaster yesterday afternoon without trying to turn the speech into an Iraq-based one. I'm glad to see that he is actually caring about those that we've lost and wanting to see that all those still alive are found. Although, I still find it hard to believe that the government will be able to actually put forth such an effort with all the troops and funds we are constantly pouring into his father's war. I feel that we should actually cut off funding to the middle east until such a time as we have taken care of our own first. A good friend told me, "We must first take care of ourself before we are able to help others."...or something to that affect. And it's true. We need to stop playing Big Brother for a while and tend to the needs of those at home before going off to aid those that don't want us in their's. Ok...enough politics from me. I'm not anti-war, I just want our soldiers home and I want those in the wake of Katrina to have the aid they deserve. I don't blame our men and women for a single thing they do as they are simply following orders. I blame the one's pulling the string. That's all, honestly. *shifts from political mode* I got a good night's sleep last night, not because I was ordered to, but because I thought it best. Heh...well, I don't think you can call it a good night's sleep as I had that damned nightmare again, execpt Katrina is laughing now at me as I lay there dying, spouting out some things that makes me want to cry even thinking about it. It's actually ironic, the woman in my dreams named after the hurricane. But all in all, I've come to a conclusion. I'm tired of playing around. Honestly, I truely am. I've been trying to act how I thought would get more people to actually like, especially someone in particular, but it doesn't work. Instead, it just gets me so bottled up inside that I want to explode. Well, not a violent explosion, just one where I want to run and scream my head off. So what if I am a fanboy? I'm fucking proud of that. My closest friends and I share so much in common simply because of that. So what if I'm not the best artist around? I have four people in my life that actually likes my stuff, and that makes me feel like I'm better than Monte or Alex Ross any day of the week. So what if I'm fat??!! I'm taking better care of myself these days and actually losing weight. Why? Well, it's actually to impress someone but I guess that's a fruitless endevure within itself and a totally different story for another day. So what if I want to spoil those I care about?! It's my money, I'll spend it how I damn well please. So what if I'm a gentleman first in the eyes of everyone? What, you want me going around and eyeing every woman that walks by me and judge her based on her outward appearence? Screw you! I'm a guy, yeah, doesn't mean that women on pieces of meat. And...*smiles softly, blushing*...so what if my heart cares for someone that'll never see me the same way I do her and will only like me as a friend, if even that?! Hey, I'm not the self-proclaimed Dimwit of Steel for nothing you know. And even though she's "Katrina" in my dreams, I know that she'd never do anything like that, literally or not....no matter how big of a jerk I am. So there...I'm putting it all out there. I'm damn well proud of who I am. Don't like it? Tough. Means you aren't a true friend and I'm used to finding that out by now. My true friends are the ones that'll stand by me as I'm lost in the shadows of doubt, trying to find out who I am. And they're the ones in the light, standing next to me once I find out, proud of me. And yes...I realize that I'm sounding like a badly dubbed anime right now...but...SO WHAT???!!!!???? *laughs some* Alright, enough from me for one day. Everyone, enjoy your day and night. And while your at it...tell that special someone in your life how ya feel. You'll feel better for it in the morning and who knows...maybe they'll mirror your words. If not...at least you can say you tried, right? Later... Random Quote:You can't choose the one you love, and you can't love the one you choose.