Why is it that everytime I'm sad, this silly play-list of mine (on random/shuffle) always plays the romantic songs?! It's like it is alive and has a sick sense of humor... Well, it's been a couple days since I last checked in with anyone. Doesn't seem like anyone's missed this loser, so I don't feel so bad. Only thing I feel bad for was not being online to bug little rose or Belldandy. But...by the looks of their diaries, they haven't been online either. That, or they just didn't feel the need to update. Either way, if any one out there is interested, here's how my Friday and Saturday went: ~Friday~ Wow...this day was a double-bladed sword, with the bad cutting me more and more. First, I work three class periods on a character for my project with Bailey. I give it to him for him to draw his version of it. In less than 10 minutes...10 damn minutes...he draws one that makes me look like I'm back in preschool. Talk about making an artist feel more talentless than he already does. Needless to say, I feel we'll go with him drawing the comic, me inking/photoshopping it. Later, a guy I despise actually defended me. WTF?! Now I knew my day could only get worse. Then one of my friends was right on the money about me. This one has always been good at knowing me pretty well. I mean, she knows what I am thinking even before I do. But right at the end of class, she narrowed me and my life down to one tiny word. It didn't hurt, make me sad, or anything stupid like that. No. It was actually amazing that she was finally right on target with that boomerrang strike. Then later that night, I was finally able to make it to Ash's band concert. I was a little bit late, mostly because I'm a loser and went to the right when I got in to Reitz, instead of going left. Anyways, seeing her play was the highlight of the day. We didn't get to actually see one another after that, though. That was really sad. Though, I think she saw me finally (Told you I wasn't as cute as you thought, little rose...).*wishes she was on right now to talk to* As I sat, waiting for my ride, it hit me that my friend from earlier was even more right than even I'd guessed. So, I went to Arcs and played pool until 3 AM (closing time). Which brings us to.... ~Saturday~ ...As you can probably already tell, I didn't sleep. Nah, still haven't, either. (Day 5 or so) Anyways, I came home for just long enough to set my vcr to tape some anime that day. I then went off. Now, anyone that knows me knows that when I get really depressed, I like to take my frustrations out on my wallet and go shopping for tons of anime. I went to Best Buy and I just stared at them all. I was thinking I could just buy them all up and go home and watch them all. Stay offline and skip school until every last beautiful episode/movie/OVA was watched. But I didn't. Instead, I controlled myself and bought only three: The new volume of Case Closed (Yes, Jess, you can borrow it once I'm through ^_^), the newest Yu Yu Hakusho for Anime Club, and the new Dragon Ball Z: Ultimate Uncut Special Edition vol.1. I've watched them both except for Conan, for some reason. After lunch I went to Newburgh for some fraps. Nothing like a form of 'coffee milkshake' to calm a sleepless nerve. Anyways, I mostly played pool again after that and talked to some friends. And went for a long, long, long walk. I seem to do that alot. It helps me think, plus it's good excersise. Anyways, I just got home a short while ago. Some friends want me to come off to play Budokai 3 with them, but I don't know. If I'm not online later, then just call my cell. I might be over there for a couple hours. I feel sick. I bet it's from walking all night without my jacket on. Lol...I'm such a fucking idiot! Anyways, I don't have much to report on for today. So I'll just leave you all in my normal fashion. *waves and bows* This is everyone's favorite streetwalking Senji-ku signing off, saying ja mata and catch ya on the flipside. *curls up with tiger plushie to get some rest.* -----------------------+++--------------------- *stretchs and yawns* Well, it's been a few hours since I wrote the above posting. Nothings really changed that much. I still feel like shit, both physically and emotionally. I haven't heard from little rose lately. *frowns, and sketches a little tiger while sighing softly* I would probably call her if it weren't so late...maybe text her later. I don't know. Hopefully I'll talk to her after school tomorrow. *yawns some more, tapping pencil against the edge of the desk* I get so bored during Sunday evenings. Everyone's either out doing something with family or they're turning in early for school. Me? I don't like turning in early for some reason. I guess I like staying up to see if anyone gets on later. Then again...maybe I just like to quiet and time to think. And here lately, I've been given alot to think about. Such as...Am I really too nice of a guy? Why can't I ever win? Do I really want to continue being an artist? If you promised yourself that you would not search for something, yet it comes to you...do you accept it as a gift or try to hide from it? Why is the sky blue? Ok...so the last question is a joke. Lol....sheesh...rough crowd. Anyways...I'll be heading for the second time tonight. Your streetwalking Senji-ku signing off, saying ja mata and catch ya on the flip side.