What a waste of a perfectly good Halloween. I was stuck running errands all damn day that I only got a chance to watch one horror movie, and that was more like a dark comedy/drama so it doesn’t count. What the fuck happened to the days when horror movies meant a film in which you have the shit scared out of you? I mean I should not be laughing when a room full of people are slowly being slaughtered for one various reason or the other! Its tv, I tell ya! It’s fucking de-sensitizing the youth of our generation!! *sighs* I’m sorry. It was just a bad day and I shouldn’t be taking it out on my second favorite form of film. I mean, the people that are making them are doing the best job they can. It’s hard to scare people any more with stuff that’s been used at least a dozen times before you. And my bad day is no excuse to blow up like that. Anyways, why the bad day, if you’re thinking/asking? Well, we’re at the mall for a breather and a trip to EB when I said, for the first time ever in the last 10 years, that I was looking forward to my birthday. Rob asked why and I said because it’s going to be nice knowing that my friends would be getting together because of me. He began to laugh saying how I was a complete “dickhead” to everyone (am I?) and that he’d be surprised if anyone got me a present, let alone did that. I just glared and passed it off. I get home and finally was able to get on like an hour ago (1:15 Am), due to every damn line in the house being tied up, and I’ve got a handful of messages from friends canceling on me and I find out that my parents are both working most of the day on my birthday. Frankly, I don’t even care any more. It’s just another day to me now. Then all I hear any more is how I “need a life” because anime isn’t worth anything. How by casually being able to drop Naraku’s name into a conversation proves just how big of a loser I am. Why the fuck is it that moment you start feeling good about who -you- are, everyone around you decides its not what you should be doing?! And on top of that, I think I’m getting sick-sick (as in physically)...-again-. Yeah, I just got over the flu not a few days ago and now it feels like it’s back. *rubs eyes* At least October is over. I officially will hate this month for the remainder of my years on this earth. Too many bad memories are abound with this 31 day tragedy. *sighs, relaxing a bit* Well, enough complaining, I suppose. On to better news/related topics. First, I’ve finally got a set design for Ella, the vampire love interest/stalker for Senji, as well as a handful of other pieces. I’d post them on my DA page ( http://www.senjimakoto.deviantart.com ) but I’m waiting to get my art tablet to begin coloring anything again. I didn’t have that birthday nightmare again last night. It was actually a very pleasant dream. I’m sitting alone on the porch, watching the stars twinkle in the haze covered sky when a car pulls up. Out pops...someone special and walks up, sitting next to me. Honestly, with no joking, it’s basically just silence as the two of us sit next to one another. Then, out of the blue, for some reason I begin to say a particular 3-worded sentence. They smile, shaking their head, and kiss me saying “I know”. After that, she gets up and sits with me in my seat and we just stare at the stars. Finally I wake up. I actually woke up blushing. I don’t know why I had that dream, nor do I care. All that matters is that it makes me want to say something to her and I hate it that I can’t. *shrugs* Oh well, that’s just life, right? And finally, the newest issue of Anime Insider has confirmed that Viz is picking up the publishing rights for not only the R.O.D manga, but also the novels. Not only that, but Trigun is getting a sequel. Sadly, it isn’t going to be in the form of a new series but of either one or two movies, either of which will be given a theatrical American release, just like the up coming Fullmetal Alchemist movie. Now...if only they’d be this nice to Inuyasha, am I right? *yawns* Well, that’s it for me tonight, boys and girls. Senji-ku will catch you all tomorrow after he catches some shut-eye!