tonight was...weird. i dont even know for sure if any of it was real... i mean, it was, but it doesnt seem like it...its like, it was too good to be true, and tomorrow, everything will be just as it was before... i dont know... anyway. today was alright i guess... had my first appointment :/ it was nerve-wracking, but hopefully it'll help me in the long run... but i digress. lmao! i just saw a commercial for that movie boogeyman...hahahaha yeah, none of you will get that...eh well. my birthdays on sunday! lol, i know ive already said that, but hey, im gonna be 16...it excites me, lol. permit!!! and lindsey comes home thursday...not sure if thats a good thing or not though :/ she doesnt seem to care much about me anymore...but eh, whatever, i dont think it really matters anymore truthfully. i mean, i still like her, but if she doesnt like me, then she doesnt like me...no big deal, we can still be friends. this entry is weird...too many thoughts to sort through right now... i'll be back.