...i need to write... wow, its been a while since i've actually NEEDED to come here. im ok right now...but i have the feeling that pretty soon everythings going to go downhill. and fast. argh, theres just too much going on right now...paige and i are no longer friends...i have fucking barry to thank for that... and i am SO not ready to face everyone at school again... and i'm in for a rude awakening pretty soon...i know it's coming and yet i refuse to let myself see it...im clinging to something that isnt there, and when i finally realize that, im going to fall...hard. and i'm scared... damn...school hasn't even started and already i need a break... not fucking cool. i wanna pierce something...any ideas? lol. edit ok, so today turned out not to be completely unfortunate. slightly painful though...for future referrance, if you ever have a wooden shaft stuck in you...do NOT twist it...[ouch:( ] but yesss...i believe i found a way to get to the My Chemical Romance concert in october, which means (hopefully) going with my kimmi...hmm...2 of the most gorgeous people in the world, in the same room...one of which i love very much, the other which i lust VERY much...and with good music in the background... can we say 'orgy'? lmao ;) i seriously can't wait for this...i mean, its gerard...seriously, the pictures are pretty, but until you see him in person, you have no idea...GOD hes gorgeous. and when he walks out onto that stage, he just brings SO much energy to the room, and when he sings...you can just tell he loves it, and that he loves being there. i cant describe it...but when he talks, its like hes talking to you and ONLY you...and when its over, you walk away with like, a natural high. his energy, his aura, its like, contagious. i dont know how else to explain it...but it's effing awesome. anyway..ive rambled enough i think.