Listening to: The Used - Light with a Sharpened Edge
Feeling: anxious
i hate this.
i hate who we are, what we've be come.
i hate who you make me.
but mostly...i think im kind of starting to hate you.
why the fuck do you always get what you want? ...what I want?
you don't even fucking appreciate what you have. you always want more.
what is it about you that makes you so desireable, and in turn, makes me completely undesireable?
its like you have this switch that when you flip it, it turns everyone against me in favor of you.
what the fuck did i ever do so wrong to you to deserve this?
i trusted you...you fucking stabbed me in the back!
the worst part is, you didnt have the guts to tell me. instead you lied about it to my face, you played it off as though nothing was happening, as though you'd dont nothing...
but i knew better.
however, i said nothing. i had what i wished for, it was over and done with, i didnt see any need in starting something over it, it would have been pointless.
but now...well, now you've done it again. this is the second time you've tried to pull this bullshit over on me, and i'll be damned if i let you continuously try until you finally do manage to totally screw me over.
I'll be damned.
see if i ever trust you with anyone i care about again.
Everything I know about breaking hearts
I learned from you, it's true
I've never done it with the style and grace you have
But I've made long term plans
based on these mistakes
Is this what you call tact?
I swear you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
so let's end this call,
and end this conversation
there's nothing worse...
that's right he said, that's right he said it
I swear, you have no idea
The jealousy that became me thinking
that's right he said
that you always had it way too easy
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
sidenote:
thanks Ali ♥
and you dont have the fucking balls to tell me
your getting pretty fucking lame
attack me in entries, whatever, but
"Sell me out- the jokes on you
We are salt- and you are the wound"
you say i play the victim
well read your entries
your screaming to be the victim because you cant handle being the murderer
but thats really all you are
but anyhow hope you 2 work this out and if not, then lets hope this ends peacefully *punch her in the face brandi!* LoL
anyhow gotta bounce
love ya!
xoxo
and the saddest part of you calling me pathetic?
i was right about your "plan"
hahahaha
and what makes YOU even more pathetic?
you have to pick a fight with me because your not happy about your own life
sorry i like life and you hate it. sorry i dont put myself in the situations you do. sorry you think im so much better than you. thats really sad
the fact that i still have no idea what i did wrong.
and neither does anyone else
NO one can think of what ive ever done wrong, it seems your the only one
can we say PARANOID?
you have to go after someone who actually has something and knows it
now that i want nothing to do with you
lets see how you turn out
lets see where you are in 5 years
im sure it'll be something worth talking about
you say i dont appreciate anything i have?
your COMPLETELY wrong
i love everything i have.sure i wish for more, who doesnt?
im just the dreamer
and your just the realist
you appreciate absolutly nothing
you had kim and you threw it away
you have friends and you toss them like garbage
you have a great living situation and you take it for granted
hypocrite
you made me laugh like whoa
you cant bring me down, not to your level at least, dont you realize that?
still have no idea what i did wrong
neither does anyone else i ask
this is the last time i talk in your direction, look at you, think of you, read your words, hear your name, or even acknowledge you exist
"save the drama for your mama"
i dont need your shit
thats all you ever bring