dude, first time in like, a week that i've actually been able to just put my music on shuffle and let it play. lately i've been getting songs stuck in my head, and then i HAVE to listen to them...over and over and over and OVER again. and i got SO sick of it. but i couldnt turn them off because then they were stuck in my head for even longer. first it was its not a fashion statement, its a fucking deathwish (mcr) that one was fine, because i love that song. but THEN it was vermillion (part 2)...that song is just DEAD depressing. and i've been listening to it for like, 3 days now. so yeah, ive been depressed. and im actually kind of in an "angry phase" right now. eh, i'll get over it. i just gotta avoid certain people until then, they could trigger it. piercings! i finally managed to get farther then paige has... anyway...theres really more to it then a song, but i dont want to go into that. so lets just blame slipknot for my err-ness and move on, k? i was actually all set to come on here and be all emo-ness emo-ness emo-ness emo-ness emo-ness GRR emo-ness emo-ness emo-ness... but then lexie and ricky came on and talked to me. me and ricky had a good convo, and me and lexie had a fun one. we were playing with this slogan generator i found a while back, and then she found some more fun sites. so that cheered me up. i ♥ that girl. anyway. had a good conversation with my lindsey the other night...it was all like...open-ness. but on a side note...i see myself falling towards a situation that spells 'disaster' ...but its almost like a train wreck...you see it coming, but all you can do is stand by and watch helplessly. well, actually, im lying. there is one way i could prevent it, but...i wont do it. i guess you could say i'm like that one person that could prevent that train wreck, but i'd rather wait and watch everything explode, without regards to who it will hurt. i guess im just sadistic like that sometimes. so... i finally got my schedule fixed after like, 4 or 5 visits with my guidence councilor, my mom calling him and going to the school, meeting with teachers, kissing ass to get them to let me in... so im in a better chemistry class now. and i DID end up getting the ok for the CP history class. i actually got all the papers for it and everything. but i decided in the end to stick with the honors. my teacher talked me into it, really. when i gave her my drop form, she was all "no you cant leave!" and convincing me that i can do it, and that she'll help me with anything i ever need help with, and that i shouldnt leave my friends because we work well together and they couldnt go on without me (ok, so im dramatizing here, but she really DIDN'T want me to leave). SO i decided to stay. i now fear that my guidence councilor may try to murder me in my sleep. AND IN OTHER NEWS: im going to an amusement park on sunday. basically, the company my dad works for has been around for like, 80 years, so theyre having this big party. so they rented out this amusement park in connecticut and gave tickets to all their employees. and my dad gave them to me...SO im going with my lindsey and the barry. soOoOoOo yes, this should be fun. my lindsey turned in her senior will the other day too. she left me bert and gerard, and october 31st...so now i have to remember to leave her ville, lol. but yeah...thats all for now, cuz im bored and err and yeah...bye.