ugh fucking school. went to my councilor today. couldnt get any of the classes i wanted. the one class i did kinda want was chemistry, so i could have it with lindsey since shes fucking leaving next year. but no. i fucked up and picked the wrong teacher. so no go with that one either. i dont have the right lunch. im still in honors history, which im probly gonna fail. there wasnt any room in the CP classes. i have algebra next semester with a teacher that i'll probly do horribly with. my allied health class is now being completely overrun by a bunch of horribly preppy bitches. so even thats losing it's fun. but ohhh thats not even the 1/2 of it. thats only the problems im having with my schedule. dont worry, everything else is still all fucked up too. and now i have a new problem to add to the list. and this ones worse then most of the others. and if comes back to haunt me... dude im SO screwed in SO many ways. and tylers all weird now. not that it really matters, its just...kinda confusing. one day he like, hates me, then hes all hugging me and stuff...? i dunno, it doesnt really bother me much...but we were friends last year, then this summer we didnt talk at all, and now he's all weird. i dunno. i have an "appointment" today. i dont wanna go. it wont help. i cant even talk about 1/2 the shit thats bothering me. i tried writing it all out in a private entry thingy. didnt do anything. i still feel horrible. god damnit, life hates me :( cant anyone save me from this? ...but i suppose i shouldnt be entirely pessimistic... i made a new friend today. he was sitting all alone in the rain, so i went and said hi. his name is ryan. and he was sitting all alone because he was supposed to graduate last year, but he couldnt, so he stayed back while all his friends graduated. so now he doesnt know anyone. it was sooooooo sad. so i brought him over to our group. he didnt talk much though. i think we mightve scared him :/ that happens sometimes when paige and chris are around, lol. eh well, maybe i'll talk to him again tomorrow. perhaps i can make him less scared, lol.