Today was really really fun.. ..my kinda fun anyways... In History we were talking about Israel and Palestine and everything.... I don't know why...but I find all of that so interesting... I just love learning about it...I could listen all day ....all night.....all the time...well by now I hope you get my point...I love it...it's so much fun... English was a blast....me, Dustin, and Josh had tonz of fun..talking about absolutley nothing... I love those conversations... I feel so dang bad right now..lately I do nothing but treat my friends like dirt...today for example... I left Ber standing outside the school..while I ran down to the gas station to find my gas cap..which wasn't there by the way... I told NIcole that I didn't know if I was going to go to the show...I want to.....but....I don't at the same time.... Dannielle was crying before 5th hour and I told her that I would come and find her after school.....but I decided that I would just leave.. I am such a mean person....I barely talk to anyone on the team anymore......I'm mean... I wanted to help Dannielle with her friend problems....but how can you help someone else with their problems..when you can't help yourself with your own?....hmmm.... I hope that made sense...but anyways.... I treated M like dirt on msn last night....but she wasn't talking....grr.... I've been so mean to everyone....I feel really bad... But I have such a busy life right now that I don't know what to do...I have school, swimming, sammy, friends, homework, sucky grades, family issues...And I feel like all of this is crushing me.... School especailly has me really really stressed out....and I can't think of anything but myself...I have so much to do..and so little time to do it in... I'm sorry you guys (if you read this)..I just...haven't had time to think about you... Please forgive me.....I am so stressed right now...I don't have time to talk to you guys...or hang out with you guys...there is just so much stuff going on.. I really am sorry!