I am incredibly ashamed of my horniness. All I've wanted to do these last couple months is just make out and cuddle with guys. But I realized something by talking to amy. I decided that when I first make out..I want it to be for the right reasons, not just because I want a guy to mack with and that's it. I especially feel really bad about wanting to do it soo badly with a certain someone that bugs me sometimes but I still really like. I was thinking about it today, and I actually do like him alot. When he was scared during the movie, I was genuinley (sp?) concerned for him. When he's sick, I wish he was better. If sad then happy. I can't believe that I let a Sophmore teach me a lesson about life without him even realizing it. I would be perfectly fine just holding hands with him. That would be really nice, I would be in paradise if I could just cuddle with him. I can't believe that I actually just wanted to mack with him and then walk off like nothing happened. how unfair. how selfish. I realize that when your horny, you can't really control what you're thinking, but I think about it now...and I feel so embarrassed about the way I have been acting. I'm really sorry for all of those that I have made listen to me, especially amy....she probably thinks I'm a turbo slut or something. I'm sure my time will come, and when it does I want things to be... r.e.a.l.