I am so artificial. I've told myself that I don't want a relationship this year so many times. It should be bolted into my mind. I think back on all of my past ones and they were so ludicrous and unnecessary. I wasn't thinking clearly. I was just a stupid girl, who'd get all twitterpated, want a boyfriend, get one, then realize how pointless it was, or that I candidly didn't know anything about the person except that they were attractive. It wasn't like that with Guido though. Yes, he was definitley attractive at first glance. But I didn't start dating him until 2 summers ago. Plus I'd known him since what? 6th grade. I mean, I knew him. I wasn't just in love with his looks either, I was in love with everything. His humor, his wisdom, his intelligence, his logic, his reasoning, his.... ....whole guido.ness. I'm being a stupid girl. Again. It sucks because I know I am, but I don't want to change anything. How lame can I get, honestly. Grr. I hate myself right now. I wish I had a little more self-control..... ..but I don't want any right now..... I might just have to learn the hard way once again. Lamey, lamey lame lameness. Dah! He's not even my type! In fact he's complete opposite, just like Bradey. I am so stupid I can't stand it! *sigh* sleep. meep.