So, I think my car's value doubles in price when it has a full tank of gas. I'm so ridiculous sometimes. The winds are shifting. And I'm actually pretty ok with it. Didn't go to church today. Sleep just felt more important. I'm horrible. Later I hate knowing that it's coming, and that there really is nothing I can do to stop it. I can't do anything about it. The anxiety keeps growing. So I keep going over in my mind what I'm going to say, how I'm going to say it, and what words can I possibly use to portray exactly what I think and feel? Are there any words that could possibly give my thoughts justice? No.So maybe I'll just have to make some up. "Oh the chemistry between us could destroy this place."