I rolled myself out of my warm, cozy bed this morning...and I went to church... ..I was late.....but I really didn't want to go anyways...church is really boring for me....I learn the same things every week.....I swear I have the whole lesson book memorized... Anyways...I was getting ready to go to church...and I looked in the mirror.... ...then..... ....I realized something... ..I have no idea who I am.....I didn't know that girl who was looking back at me....I didn't know where she was going...what was going to happen to her...what she was thinking about.... ...or anything.... ...I looked at myself and I thought "who is that?".. I started to cry, I sat down, right there in front of te mirror, and cried..... I don't know what brought that on.....it was really random.... Anyways..the rest of my day went ok..but I can't shake that feeling from my mind.....I want to know what I am going to do with my life...I wish that I could see the future....I wish that I could see what was in store for...... .....me.... When I look in the mirror...I don't see someone unique...someone special, or someone with great talents.... I see a girl, that looks like everyone else, that does what everyone else does, I feel like bits and pieces of everyone else thrown together to make.... ..that girl in the mirror... Sometimes I stare in the mirror for hours...looking for some physical feature that makes me different from everyone else... I fail every time, and when I do, I cry. I try and find some feature, some distinct difference, but I try in vain.... Some where out there, there is someone with the same shape, and color of eyes, the same color of skin, then same size ears, the same lips and teeth.... ...I don't feel unique at all.. And not even with physical differences... Someone out there can swim just as well I can, gets the same grades as me, likes the same music, loves the same color...etc, etc.... I know that I am not the only one that feels this way, ...but why can't that girl in the mirror.... ..be unique... I met this guy named Tray the other day...at work... He seems like a really nice kid....right away we became friends, we talked about EVERYTHING. He is one of those people, that listens, but at the same time, he shares what he is feeling to.... ...I can tell that we are going to be hanging out alot this summer...and I am so excited... I'm not saying that I have a crush on this guy, though I must say that he is quite attractive, he's got a great personality, and is someone that I can enjoy being with... He's one of those guys that makes you want to do the right thing, to stand for what you are supposed to....he makes me want to live the way that I should... Guys like that are hard to come by!...but he is definitley a keeper... GO TRAY!!..lol..anyways...