ok so last night after work..Megan and I decided that we wanted to go to ICEBERG and get something to eat.. ..Megan, being the person that she is decided to invite Chris to come along with us....and he did..and I guess he decided that he was going to buy everything because he wouldn't let me and Megan buy anything ourselves...ok....that was nice..but kinda awkward... ..so we are sitting there eating our food..and we start talking about careers, jobs, all of that...and I asked him when he was going back home to live in California.....because he was supposed to have left a while ago..but he just keeps on coming to work.... ..he said that he wasn't going home to live..that he still had a year of college left..and so now my situation is even harder than before...because he's not leaving.... ..another wierd thing happened.... you know how sometimes..you really really like someone...and then in one day...that all changes...and it's like..."wow....was I dreaming that I like you or what?"... ..well it has happened once again..I still really really like Chris..but..not to the same extent anymore..which is really bugging me right now..but..whatever..I don't decide....unfortunatley...my heart does.....and that sucks bigtime... Today is Sunday ..Fathers Day....I don't know what I would do without my daddy...he's the one person in my family that I can truly sit down with and have a heart to heart conversation..I love him so much..and I don't know what I would do without him... ...he helps me with everything...me being stupid at school and stuff...he has to put up with a lot..but I am so thankful that he doesn't EVER give up on me.... ...I love you daddy!!!..and I hope you know that!! I'm so depressed....today is the one day that I can celebrate having the best daddy in the world...and guess what? I HAVE TO WORK!!!... the only upside to this is that it will be the ONLY Sunday that I have to work...I won't EVER have to work another one....which is nice...because I don't EVER want to work another one...Sunday is a special day to me...and it shouldn't be ruined by having to go to work. oh well..it's my only one..I should't complain! well..I have to go and get ready.. bye