After last nights miniscule conversation, I guess I'm not sure about how things are going to be this summer with my love. We chit-chatted, talked about our long-distance relationship and how things have been working out for both of us. I've had one boyfriend. He's had one girlfriend. We're even. No oddness about it. I had a great meditation moment last night. I sat on my bed, in my room...just thinking. He told me to think about how I wanted things to be this wonderful summer that's coming up. Of course I wanted to answer right away, but he gently said "Please, think about it completely. I'll call you in several days." Um. Ok. Well, I've thought about it, and I wish I hadn't. I don't want things to be EXACTLY they were before. I missed out on dating a lot of really cool people last summer because I was tied up with Guido. [note that I have absolutley no regrets about this at all]. I missed out on hanging out with my friends, the ones that are actually here to stay. Guido leaves every 3 months for some new adventure. I guess I want to leave myself more open then I was last summer. I love him, but I've realized through various other relationships that I'm in highschool, and why should I waste these precious years seeing only one person when there is a whole world of other fantastic people? I guess my decision is made. As much as I hate it, I know that it will be excellent for me. Plus, when he leaves, perhaps I won't be as attached. [like that will happen, but still..I can dream] Anyways. Missed out on an extra hour of sleep last night. My body definitley isn't liking this whole 'time change thing'. It rained/snowed. Poor sun. Please come out. Practice was pretty good. We swam, then stopped in the middle to watch the lifeguards on duty capture a muskrat that was swimming around in one of the outside pools. It was awesome. I had this secret desire to go and release it though. Jen stopped me. Um. I finished re-writing my Character Analysis paper, because SOMEONE had to copy it. No names here. Oh well *shrugs* It's 100 X's 100 times better then the first one I wrote. Spring Break coming up. So excited.