I am a loser.... Sammy..................., he does this every time...he lets other people fight his battles for him.......... ...and he doesn't stand up for himself........ Why is it that whenever I want to have a conversation with Sammy......... ..........or just flirt with him....... .....that Scott (friggin' idiot) and Stewart (the other friggin' idiot)...have to butt into everything??..... .....all they ever do is say lame things, make me feel like a moron, and act like they are better than everyone. They have some major ego problems.... I can't stand them...I have done nothing to them...and they treat me like dirt.....from day one.... Scott has been a jerk....and Stewart has been pushing me around...I can't stand it...why do they have to be so.............STUPID??? What have I done that makes them act that way?? I'm so sick of being pushed around by guys....first it was Sammy, and now there is a trio starting...Sammy,, Scott, and Stewart...isn't it ironic that all their names start with the letter S..... Sammy used to be such a nice, sweet, the kind of guy that every girl dreams of dating kinda guy... Where did that all go wrong??...was it when he was making out with Becca at State..when I was still going out with him??...... .......or was it even before that?........ We used to be so close...and we were just getting back on that track...... .....but once again.... ......he is turning into a vicious monster..... I've seen it happen once...and I don't think that I could stand it if it happened again.... I still care about him....I'm still concerned for him....and I still love him....but I can't be in love with someone that treats me like scum..... Why can't he be the way that he used to??....Why can't I have a decent conversation with him??..... Scott and Stewart are bad influences on him....They are the kinda guys that think they are 'cool'...if they beat up a girl, or win a fight....stupid big-headed twin freaks!!! I wanted to be friends with them...and you can ask anyone....when I meet someone...I'll probably end up being friends with them...but with them..... from day one..they have been on my case about SOMETHING...and if there isn't something..they'll make something up..... Some may disagree....but you have to understand this from my point of view... ...ya know...maybe they don't know they have been jerks..... ....but.... ...why?? M goes along with their rough housing.....but maybe that's just because she doesn't really know what it feels like to be physically hurt by a guy that she cares about....maybe she has...but...I don't know... She will probably disagree with everything that I have written...... ...and that's fine..... She can't change the way I feel...and I can't change the way that she feels... I really needed Curtis to be there today.....right now...I feel like he is the only guy...that will talk with me, be nice to me....and care about me..... He makes me feel great about myself......and he always believes that I can do things...even though I may think otherwise.... He's the kinda person..that just keeps cheering you on...that keeps pushing you...and keeps on giving you encouragement....he has done that for me the last couple of days..... But he was gone today..probably one of the days that I needed that comforting feeling the most.... oh well....I'll get over it.....