i seriously just painted my driveway white... with fence paint...i must be completly insane... cuz i also painted myself. i was a walking fucking statue. really now... wat kinda freak does that!? anyways. i talked to alot of people last night. i talked with rina*, who got *allan to unblock me. so i gotta figure out some shit with him. he's so fucking stubborn. all i wanted to figure out is where the hell we were now. cuz like, sure, i want him so fucking bad cuz i miss the way he made me feel. but like.. i needed that closure thing... ya know? course ya do. lol. further more! i think i might be making progress with Alyssa*... she didnt tell me to go to hell when i talked to her!!!!! THATS GOOD! so, i've once again got the place to myself. dads outta town, i wanan get drunk. but i dont have any money... or booze. lol.. trevor wants me to drink with him. but thats not something i feel like doing. so like. yea. i wish melissa and i werent fighting( even tho i deserve it) cuz then i'd have her over and we'd get wasted.... i'd love to drink with allan too... but him and i both know wat happens when we're drunk togeteher. so watever. (song changes to Cowboy-KidRock) oh god i gotta get this tune off... brb.there we go. ( groove is in the heart-Dee Lite) well. i think i'll stop writting now. cool. seeya!!! -me