Most amazing dream last night. Brought on by Ryans behaviour last night as he dropped me off at home. Just mind blowing. The reality of it. How each movement and expression seemed to really happen. I think I saw liana this morning. Same hair, same pants/shoes/belt. Little purse that fit snug under the armpit. But she looked a little to small to be her. Ryan just blows my mind. I was all freaked out last night about what not. and he always seems to change my mood .... he doesnt even need to do anything, and it changes drasticaly. I was in bummo land, and then minutes later i was in candy land. It's all so insane. This morning I woke up at 6am. and i was in immense amounts of pain. i could barely move. i managed to get upstairs... only to have my cries of help completly ignored and scoffed at by my father.Luckily, wendy woke and took care of me. I'm lucky to have her. and my father? not so lucky. he's a better friend than a parent.