Why does everything i love die. well i suppose everything and everyone anyone loves eventually dies. but for me, why does it all die.... hypothetically? i hate it. last night i dreamt randi was pregnant. And when i asked who the father was,(i suspected darcy knight because he was sitting next to her)this man reached out from down the table(he was blocked by somebody else,) and gripped randi's hand, she smiled in his direction and turned back to me to talk.I didnt see anything about the man, except that he was black. ------------------------------------ Ryans being a bum. last three days he prefered to stay home and play video games rather than see me. ----------------------------- hurts --------------------- but we're going to my moms saturday probably, which will b great, we had a great time last time. ---------------------------------------- last time i talked to her i wasnt really myself. she wasnt herself either. i dont think she ever is. it's like, I changed, and the world around us changed, but she hasnt. i think she's stuck.