But in reality... I am: Candise Doreen Mavis McMullin. Young. But not that young. I know more than you'd expect a girl like me to know. I've done most of it before. Not this life. But others. I'm not religious... But i am spiritual. I believe in making love, not war. I dont believe in love at first sight. I believe in taking a deeper look. I like the feel of cold leather on a hot day. And the smell of ciggarette smoke in a dingy bar. I like how a person tastes when their excited. And I like the way ones hair looks after a night full of sweat, lust, passion. I dont think I'll ever make up my mind about myself. But you will. I will never truly FALL but I will always stand up for myself. It's not you, it's me. Always. take my word for it. I dont intend on living forever, nor do I intend on living past 50. I love children, but cant have them myself. I love my family. I love my friends. I love my bestfriends. I love Ryan. I taste of sugar and sex. Of vanilla, strawberries. And I sound like a rock song...fast and upbeat... loud, pounding... Full of hidden desires and excitment. I'm illegal. I've never been arrested. I dont like drugs, But I dont hate them either. I smoke, only when I'm inclined to. And I drink, only when I want to. I'd rather be stonned than drunk. When I sleep, I dream, and when I dream, I change the world. Or decide how it should be. My mother, sister and I are attached. We hate eachother. Or we do her. vice versa. We are the same. we are broken, we are backwards. We are confusing. When I scream I scream for you. You make me feel like I'm running the red line. I hate Young Lust. Sometimes I wake up crying. My mother never comes running to me. I bleed. I have never cut myself for pain. I've seen death, sex, love, pain... horror. I am everything that you could possibly conjure up to call me. I'm a witch. I do not practise. I do not chant. I do what I'd like. Love spells are bullshit. Even if we are rejects, I'm still yours "Pass the salt". If your gonna scream, scream for me. I like to run away from what I dont understand. (Now do you understand why I always ask questions?) I believe in this thing called hope. I have it, and lack in it all in once.