I just finished watching the grease performance that TCI did. i forgot how amazing it feels to be standing on stage at the end of a show. I forgot that that was the only time i woulc have tears of happiness. Christ. i'm missing out so much this year. I know it's great to direct, sure, but your just the one that pulls it together. Your not the one on stage performing your heart out. I cant believe I allowed myself to miss out on this. This is my last year. And all this bullshit arguments? I' could do without them, sure, but it's liable. Truly. The cast has their opinion, which I'm aware of what it is. I wish i knew what was going on right now. it's sick and sad really. All in all, I'm lucky for those i have. which just this year i realized how many that is! I'm going now though. I should find out what time my bus comes at tommorow morning. All my love -Candise PS! i have a job now! telemarketing~ 10 bucks an hour, 16 hours a week. Thats means 160 bucks a week, which means like 800 dollars a month. I'm set i do believe! CHRISTMAS PRESENTS HErE I COME!!!!!