I'm at my aunts. and I'm bored. But thats nolt new. Last night i spent with ryan as usual. Not super fun, super repetitive though. as usual. I miss the night life. so fucking much. He's too old for me i think. i know i know, je's only a year older, but he has no childish fun left in him. but then again. i make up for it for both of us. therefore it's ok i guess. But i wish he would goof off with me. Doubtful though. not true. he does sometimes. In had the craziest dream last night, about the craziest people i used to 'belong to'. missing that as well. My life in is tatters right now. My cousins room is decorated like an army base. not surprising, he's going to quebec in december. he joined the canadian forces. Engineer, yes thats what i is. and he's only nearing 18. good kid. I should go though. I'm getting thirsty and i need to pee. -Candise