Dan. dammit dammit dammit. I keep chatting it up with him. Feeding on his responses. and i cant help it. for some reason i need his praise. And marc? This fucking sexual infatuation i have with him is pissing me off. I just want to rape he kid. he's hot. come one. how can i resist! But really. i shouldnt be attracted. as i bloody well know he doesnt have much 'going' for him. but that ass. god yes. and the hair?!?!?!?! i cant help myself Now. Adam? we have that sexual attraction that we dont bother to mention anymore. it'd get us in too much trouble... again. My dearest Ryan. Is of course out of the loop with this. sides my mini crush on adam and marc. because i'm much to truthful with him. But Yea. I love that kid so freaking much, and it scares me. You know how i am! I cant help but be scared the minute my heart tells me to settle down. But i want to. With ryan that is. he's amazing. i love him. And i hate him so fucking much More or less. there isnt much more i can say without repeating myself -Myself