No, it's not you crystal. I understand that sure... you and i argue to no end. But thats just how we are... not a terrible thing... argueing is needed for a strong relationship. It's about somebody else. Somebody who ahs hurt me. And yes. youa re right when you say that i hide my hurt.... I guess i'm just assuming your talking about me.. yet i did figure you were from the beggining phrase of Rebelion twin. Which we are.. arent we? We fingd what we need to rebel on.. weither it be a simple dance... or something mroe complex.. like pizza day. *(laughs)* Feels good to laugh sometimes. I've felt invisible lately.... LIke i havent been actually here. I was with few people who notice me.. and i was forgotten. odd. but what matters most is that you notice me. You sit there and drill. Tell me this and that.. annoy me, sure. But still enough to show that you know i'm there. I was so uncomfortable today at lunch. Where were you? The one person that you know i dont want to be around... was in my home poisoning what was rightfully mine. That room.... That room is more than a classroom to me.. it's a safe haven. Its where i can go to escape the terrors and shocks of the outside world.. and enter something familar and comforting. I didnt say hi.. i didnt say anything. i went along with my own business and didnt even acknowledge him in the sligthtest. I'm proud. he was this sick addiction. Now i have a new one I know your reading this ryan.. as you tend to do. And i want to leave a big THANKS for being with me. And not freaking cuz i didnt want to be alone in the same room as .. that guy. Yes. thank you ryan for understanding me in every which way. you rock my world. Until i can say more than that. Yes... You rock my world. Hm. of all wonderful people to join my english class...we have Mrs. Your banging my boyfriend herself. Yes. we do indeed. LEAVE! please really. You've seen me with mine. now let me at least let me continue to be friends with your. yes yes yes. I know. she's unconfident. whatever. I need to go Yours-Candise