get me outta here. this is blowing me right off. This whole nonsensical nonsense! Sillyness, truly, sillyness. " But then I started to feel sick about myself. About what I was doing to myself. Not my mom, or my dad, but me. I did it. Why? Why did I want to hurt myself like that? So stupid, so stupid. I shouldnt be telling you this. Why not? Because of what you must think. I dont think anything. I'm so ashamed.... I'm still so ashamed. " So small. yet such a big deal.