holy fuck... today was just... gah. really! Ryan is just... gah. And today was just... gah. And my exam was just... gah! and WOW! I baby sat tonight and ryan met my aunt and i was nervous that he wouldnt like her or vise versa, but it turns out that my aunt thinks he's a swell guy and was pleased that he talked and talked back... so gah! I think I'm done now... evidently the fact that i care for everybody and express it is dumb. I just do... ya know? I feel that everybody deserves to be cared for, and if they are, then they should know it... whats so wrong with wanting people to feel wanted. I just dont understand how people can think caring for people is dumb.....